It’s not sadness: Why women cry at work


Crying at work might not mean what you think it does. A woman weeping in front of her colleagues, her clients or her boss is probably not a woman expressing sadness. She’s not displaying weakness. Instead she’s a person expressing such a fierce sense of frustration, defiance and rage that you should consider yourself lucky she’s not carrying a weapon.

The recent travesty in Salt Lake City between a nurse and a police officer illustrates this point. As reported in the Sept. 1 issue of The Washington Post, “Nurse Alex Wubbels politely stood her ground.” But when an infuriated detective, who resented her refusal to carry out an illegal medical procedure on an unconscious patient, seized her, pushed her out of the hospital and cuffed her, the nurse started crying and yelling.

The Post’s headline begins “‘This is crazy,’ sobs Utah hospital nurse.” It was the word “sobs” that grabbed my attention. True, if headlines declared, “Experienced medical professional attempts to act with civility when confronted law enforcement officer with maniacal need to display inappropriate masculine authority,” the story might not have gone viral. Given that the incident from Salt Lake City deserved to be witnessed by thousands — the video accompanying the article is enthralling in the worst possible way — the editors achieved the large-scale effect they sought.

What the video of the altercation shows and what Wubbel’s own words, during the incident and afterward at her press conference, illustrate is that women are often driven to tears by outrage. Yes, she was sobbing, but that was because she was standing up for a principle — in this case, for the rights of her patient — and not because she was breaking down.

In contrast, Detective Jeff Payne, the one grabbing and shoving the nurse, was breaking down. He was breaking into a man who could not control his emotions and instinctively resorted to inappropriate physical force. When his illegal instructions were not followed, Payne slammed the nurse’s phone of her hand and snarled, “We’re done here.” When he couldn’t intimidate Wubbels into compliance, he lost control.

Tears also signal a loss of control but unlike breaking into violence, rarely do they damage anyone except the person crying. I’ve cried at work. While the memories still evoke a profound sense of shame in me, I’ve come to understand that I had little choice over my response. I was tough, resilient and over-prepared for whatever could be thrown in my direction — or so I thought. But there were ambushes and stealth attacks, with the most hurtful of these coming from those I considered allies. The tears that swarmed into my eyes emerged not from a nest of fragility but from a stinging sense of unfairness. Unwilling or unable to express how I really felt, biting my tongue and swallowing my words made tears come into my eyes.

So crying at work is not something I recommend. I’ve learned to avoid it. But Vermont writer Ellen Stimson makes an important distinction when she says she “Never cries over work, but crying at work? Of course I do. This is not like going to the bathroom in public. This is more like being alive in public.”

So, given that crying is something that happens even when you are not being arrested, what are the options?

Keely Buchanan, a senior corporate telecommunications manager with 16 years in the industry tells this story: “I was so frustrated and angry about a bad work meeting that I went to the bathroom on a different floor and cried.” But what happened next is what has helped make her a leader in her field: “And then, I fixed my expression before I left the stall, washed my hands, took several deep breaths and lived to fight another day”

We can also change the world, and not just our reaction to it.

As my friend Kathleen Thompson puts it, women at work are driven to tears “From the pressure of trying to do the impossible yet again.”

A woman crying at work is not looking for pity. She’s looking for justice. When she turns those tears into words and then actions, she’s closer to making that happen. She’s simply able to see more clearly.

Gina Barreca

The Hartford Courant

Gina Barreca is an English professor at the University of Connecticut and the author of “If You Lean In, Will Men Just Look Down Your Blouse?” and eight other books. She can be reached at www.ginabarreca.com.

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